Letter To Selfishness
I am learning from life not without resistance for it seems to involve change. Change one finds hard to accept because it is painful, a metamorphosis where one sheds a layer of skin to reveal yet another. Some I have put up myself to hide my essence, then I would go bacl and tear it out off me, eachtime I have to face the outcome.
I face you now that you have been revealed. A truly selfish persona, your emergence suffocates the person who has been fighting such a monster's you are dilemma to a demented mind.
You announce your presence. I myself feel that a part of me is evaporating and the stench of the vapor brings tears to my eyes. Not being able to see you nor breath you selfishness insist on placing demands to be recognized, nurtured, doctored and appreciated.
You speak to my mind telling stories of you being my savior while am bodily cornered by your demands for attention. I am pulled and shoved in all directions as I fight for another solution but you.
Selfishness I hear you laughing at my clown like attempts, but I can see you waiting for me patiently, for oh know I am growing tired and will start to settle down soon. In another attempt to fight you I resolve to become a mime,I ignore you and move aimlessly it appears, but for me am desperately going places. Regardless of my attempts you start your lessons, I continue to mime while am trying to hide my note book that holds the results of your lessons. Everything will fall apart if my selfishness is discovered.
Her I hide,she is ugly but oh so kind to me, whn she is present I cannot avert my eyes. Kind selfishness yur posture so grotesque, and your leering face so ugly while you sit in a corner pitifully. People have conflicting feelings about you, some don't mind you, some abuse you, 'some push you away.
I have pushed you away all my life, would not even consider your presence I my life, you disgusted me. Now? Now come to me I have settled down, don't mind my miming it is not for you eyes, it is for the others, the ones that are watching, waiting, expecting resenting. In your eyes the future is reflected in brilliant colors. Do not let your eyes wander selfishness do not mind their stares, the non belief of the onlookers. Do not let the guilt of what you really are sneak up on you and submerge you. It is all an illusion just let me look into your eyes. I will try to learn to love you.
I face you now that you have been revealed. A truly selfish persona, your emergence suffocates the person who has been fighting such a monster's you are dilemma to a demented mind.
You announce your presence. I myself feel that a part of me is evaporating and the stench of the vapor brings tears to my eyes. Not being able to see you nor breath you selfishness insist on placing demands to be recognized, nurtured, doctored and appreciated.
You speak to my mind telling stories of you being my savior while am bodily cornered by your demands for attention. I am pulled and shoved in all directions as I fight for another solution but you.
Selfishness I hear you laughing at my clown like attempts, but I can see you waiting for me patiently, for oh know I am growing tired and will start to settle down soon. In another attempt to fight you I resolve to become a mime,I ignore you and move aimlessly it appears, but for me am desperately going places. Regardless of my attempts you start your lessons, I continue to mime while am trying to hide my note book that holds the results of your lessons. Everything will fall apart if my selfishness is discovered.
Her I hide,she is ugly but oh so kind to me, whn she is present I cannot avert my eyes. Kind selfishness yur posture so grotesque, and your leering face so ugly while you sit in a corner pitifully. People have conflicting feelings about you, some don't mind you, some abuse you, 'some push you away.
I have pushed you away all my life, would not even consider your presence I my life, you disgusted me. Now? Now come to me I have settled down, don't mind my miming it is not for you eyes, it is for the others, the ones that are watching, waiting, expecting resenting. In your eyes the future is reflected in brilliant colors. Do not let your eyes wander selfishness do not mind their stares, the non belief of the onlookers. Do not let the guilt of what you really are sneak up on you and submerge you. It is all an illusion just let me look into your eyes. I will try to learn to love you.
posted by pstpst at 10:43 AM
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